Mr. Zebra Is still Missing.....

malenky_mozg @ 2009-09-09T15:52:00

2009-09-09T22:58:24Z

This one is for all THREE of my numerous fans who read my journal because you have no good reasons to otherwise:
I have a dark and sarcastic sense of humor
If you actually read AAALLLL of my entry's you could plainly see this
I am just venting, this stuff is for people to vent
Its a healthy alternative to actual harm done
If you took this seriously them you really don't know me and should just move along
I did get rid of some entry's as to stop offending those who did not take the time to read other subjects in my blog to know my sence of venting
Thank you for your time
Joshlyn

zed's dead baby, zed's dead.

2009-09-07T23:57:40Z

Than k the maker we will be out of this mess soon
That is all I keep telling myself these days
Kari and I got a new apartment but will not be moving until the 1st of October
But it is finally something to look forward to in this dismal city
True this means the possibility of new shitty neighbors but
I will have my own bathroom and bed room as well as a washer and drier
I wont stink so much anymore
Yay!

The last few days have been interesting however
Yesterday im pretty sure a child was getting beaten upstairs I was pissed but my apathy stopped me from going up there with my softball bat and asking if everything was alright
You can beat up most things and I will not care but animals and children is where I would actually take action
If not fro the apathy
Damn you apathy and all you un giving a shit-ness
If the whore is not walking on our heads upstairs it is the maniac child molester
Dick

Today there is a mini zoo visiting next-door to us and some of the would be ringleaders are busy having a argument
Most likely over something “important”
But I really don’t think so
Fuckinhumanbeans

I hope they end up shooting each other
And that is all

chaSINg hEr..... HEy....

2009-09-04T05:38:54Z

My little black heart,
i don't know how i find them
but i find them
the lovely ones
the sweet ones
the unavailable ones

it is like he lives in another city
i see him 2-3 days a week if i am so lucky
usually late late the first night
most of the next day (if work and/or school and/or baby permits)
and sometimes late the next night

He means well and when he is around he treats me wonderfully
And I love him so very much
But it just sucks feeling so fucking selfish
And I do feel a little selfish

its not personal its just business

all i know is that is i ever find someone who is available i would not know what to do with them
i would be in utter shock
would not be used to the being around for more than a day or two a week
would not be used to mountains of homework being much more important
it would just feel weird
someone always there in the intimate setting
I would freak out completely

That is why I love
The lovely ones
The sweet ones
The unavailable ones.

Sleepy

2009-08-24T07:44:39Z

All is Full of Love

2009-08-15T19:16:23Z

My little monkey died in my arms last night.

i went to the vet a few days before to do some blood tests and a check up
i knew she was sick but i thought that maybe i could fix her better by knowing what was wrong
took her blood but would not pee for them so they kept her for a couple of hours to try and get her to pee

she would not

but she did end up terrorizing pretty much everyone at the vet who was there that day but her doctor
she even scared the lady who would handle the crazy animals

that’s my baby, just like her mum
Because if I end up in the hospital again near death I am sure going to give them hell that time

So a little late a get a call saying that they got blood from her but she would now pee
No fucking duh, I thought to myself, she has eaten almost nothing and drinks water sometimes

sooooo…

The girl on the phone tried to muster in the nicest way to tell me to come and pick up my fucking hell spawn of a cat because they were clearly tired of her rabid antics
We get back to the vet and they suggested I have a towel to go and get her out of the cage myself because at this point no one wanted to get near her at all

Which was funny to me

The nurse had me go back to the back to retrieve my crazy baby and when we got back there she was in her little holding cage with a towel over the front
When the girl lifted the towel Elly snarled at her
Which made the girl jump back behind me and gingerly try to open the cage door
She get it half way open and the hissy fit got louder
So I told her I got it and open the cage more
The girl hid around the corner so “Elly would not get upset”

The angry German brow was in fully force at this point until a reached into the cage and patted her little head and she calmed down in an instant
The nurse asked me if I was sure I did not want a towel to which I replied with “why?” as I picked Elly up out of the cage
To her amazement
To pretty much all of the nurses there I was insane for wanted to pick her up with no protection
And some sort of saint for calming her down in an instant

I laughed all the way out to the car…

After a rather taxing day at work I came home to see my little bean lying down on top on my Trent bear next to my bed
I pick her up to give some lovins and I noticed she would not close her eyes even when I put my fingers near them
And it pretty much went down hill from there
I fed her some baby food and she ate it
But as I was holding on to her she was getting limp
I decided to lie down on my bed with her next to me and she kept fading
I had to leave her for a second and she started to claw at the bed to move but she could not even do that
I called my mum and had a little break down so she came to get me to go and put Elly down at this vet she goes to that is fairly inexpensive
So I sat on the couch with my little baby and waited
She made little noises here and there and moved a little
Finally she stretched out fully and seized up
I felt her last breath
And then her little heart stopped beating

I’m just glad she waited for me to be there with her
She knew what she was doing
The baby just wanted me to be there with her till her end
I know I will never ever have a cat as odd as her again
She was way smarter than anyone would have ever guessed
She always knew what was going on
She was a good judge of character
And I’m pretty sure she understood people
Prolly better than I ever will

I’m gonna miss that little cow
So very much.

please stop me from thinking all the time, about everything or somebody, from thinking all the time

2009-07-31T04:04:30Z

did not sleep well last night due to the buzzing in my head
this has not happened to me in a very long time
and when it dose it sucks
i sat on my bathroom floor at three a.m. in complete darkness and silence
but the buzzing got louder and a slight high pitched noise came in as well
i think my brain was trying to escape from my skull but failed epically
finally fell asleep at six this morning but only till eleven
and i'm still awake
woo

Ones decent into to madness was never meant to be easy...

2009-07-27T07:53:32Z

...

Wil Kommen

2009-07-22T21:09:53Z

I tell myself that this journal thing is just silly
Yet I keep on finding myself coming back again and again

Bah

Miguel is back again in the land of the living and I really could not be happier
Got back last night at 10:30 and came over to see me
Where he proceeded to babble for the next two hors about all sorts of un linear things

He was very very tired

I missed the sound of his voice very much, so I just listened to him
And I missed his smell
How he Feels
And all that other lovely stuff one dose love and miss when that person is away…

The meds are out to get me
I’m sure of it

Kari laughs because of the extra girly that I have been lately
It’s a strange feeling
I’m sitting there feeling like I am going to cry over some movie that I have seem one billion times
And I think to myself

WTF?

This new emotion, is rather illogical
Water from the eyes, really now people…

Work is work

Irraation level has gone down too

What a difference a day makes egh?

In geek-dom news:
My SIM is a vampire
I’m stuck on lego star wars
Fatal frame II is awesome
Looked at things from diablo III
Want to play SH2 again
And I love you Ash, and your trusty boom stick…..

Amanda was right, life is no cabaret..

put my fingers through the knotches in your spine....

2009-07-19T22:40:44Z

i am angry at everyone and no one at the same time
it is frustrating because i know nobody is doing anything wrong
but the anger is still there
i just want to scream and hit things again
its not as bad as it could have been
if i was in this state a month ago i wold have killed someone actually
now im just all emo and moody

but the good new is that he will be home in two days
and i will hopeful get to see him for a little bit before he has his little one
but even if i don't it will still be okay because i will actually get to get hold of him
by a faster means of communication

bah

two days.....

Got this from Ice...

2009-07-08T07:43:46Z

Who's the biggest douche bag you know?
Currently it’s a toss up between my boss and my Ex.

Have you ever liked someone on your top friends?
Mostly from a safe distance

Are you mad about anything?
I was pissed a little while ago but now i am better

Are you planning on going to college?
thinking about it

Are you currently reading a book?
if chins could kill

Are you afraid of falling in love?
no

If someone looked ON your bed, what would they find?
too many pillows a sheet and some dirty clothes

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
why now?

Is there someone you liked so much and nothing ever happened?
kind-of

Ready for winter to come?
indeed

If you were given $1,000,000 what would you do?
get rid of my student loans

What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
when big Joe gave me a hug

Who was the last person you have a missed call from?
ice

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?
without a doubt

Do you think the last person you kissed is a player?
no, I’d kill him

Is there a meaning behind your myspace song?
do not want

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
for a trash run, yes

What are you listening to right now?
purring of motors

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
no

Do you still talk to any of your ex's?
yes?

When was the last time you talked to your number 1?
today actually

What would you think if your boyfriend/girlfriend still kept pictures of their ex?
nothing

What time did you get up this morning and why?
9am cause my new neighbors are raving assholes

Are you happier single or in a relationship?
i was pretty meh single, but am happy now im taken.

Do you wear flip-flops during the winter?
fuck that

Think of your last two kisses, were they with the same person?
yesh

Do you love where you live?
no

How fast do you get over things?
depends on what it was, the day, and if the med's are working

Can you say you honestly don't have any feelings for the last person that texted you?
that would be silly cause i love 'em

Where is the person who has your heart at the moment?
at home prolly playing fable 2

Have you ever laughed at something that wasn't meant to be funny?
allll the fucking time

Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
...yes

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking weed?
yes

Do you believe exes can really ever be "just friends"?
as long as they are not assholes

Do you think things will change in the next few months?
i fucking hope so

Are any of your texts in your inbox locked and why?
a couple because they make me smile

The last person you kissed breaks your heart, what do you do?
move on

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
why the hell not

The one person who has hurt you the most says they love you, you say?
liar.again.still.

Are you wearing something you borrowed from someone?
nope

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?
fairly recently yes

When you meet someone you like, do you fall in love fast?
it has only happened once before now

Ever receive a really long apology?
yes recently, it was long over due

Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?
to many times

Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?
they are better than they were a month ago but i could use some better lubricants for the works

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
no actually

What type of day are you having?
long and winding, slightly disappointing

Was there anyone who "made your day"?
i think Jason did

Do you have anyone crushing on you?
indeed

Do you think flirting is cheating?
no

When was the last time someone chased you with a hose?
hummmm it was years ago

When was the last time you sang out loud?
last night at work while doing the dishes and listening to my ipod

What would be your ideal pet?
Irish hunting dog

Does it annoy you when people don't understand what you're talking about?
not as much as it used to

Which celebrity would you love to be friends with?
Johnny Depp. i assume he has a few tales to tell, most of them being outlandishly stupid....

The infamous battle. Harry Potter or Twilight?
fuck those sparkling vampires

Do you say 'legit'?
no, i still don't

Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
it was at a park, when the sun was setting

Have you kissed the last person who texted you?
yes i have

Do you usually have weird dreams?
unfortunately i do

Last person you had a deep conversation with?
Kari

What were you doing at 10:17 pm last night?
riding my bike home from work

Is anyone else in the room with you?
ellhyme and mikey

Do you get drunk every weekend?
no

If you were in the hospital on life support, would the last person you kissed come and see you?
yes i think he would

What side of the bed do you sleep on?
right side

Do you hate the last girl, other than family, you had a conversation with?
no i do not

How's the weather today?
forgiving

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
looking at pictures of red heads

How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
warm and fuzzy

Have you ever been around someone who was high?
most of my life

Last thing you purchased?
a soda

What was the last thing you drank with your number one?
never drank with her before, other than tea...

Three words to explain why you last threw up?
body shut down

not the dead parot joke....

2009-07-03T07:25:43Z

Did the last person who emotionally hurt you, ever apologize?
***no. and I am okay with that now
Your last kiss probably meant nothing to you, right?
***absolute bullshit, it always means something when we kiss
Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?
***yes
Do you think blondes are stupid, honestly?
**nope
If your mom worked at Hooters, what would you do?
***harass her, cause she would do the same to me
Do you love where you live?
***no. for the hundredth time… no
Last person you were on the phone with for more than 20 minutes?
***ice
Can you get over people easily?
***today was a good example of that, not really but pretty much depends on who you are
Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
***it was not my choice
Would you go out in public looking like you do now?
***no I would not
Last person to piss you off?
***its been a while…
What have you realized?
***I am going to be stuck here for a very long time
What were you wearing during your last kiss?
***The same ones that I had been wearing for the last three days, that’s smexy
So, what do you want for your birthday?
***a scanner and a moped
If the last person you kissed tried to kiss you again, would you kiss back?
***fuck yeah
Did you sleep alone last night?
***no I did not, it was awesome
Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
***yes, I do
Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
**nope
How do you feel right now?
***sleepeh but happy, it was a great day for me
If you could seek revenge on someone would you?
***…
Does any part of your body hurt right now?
***my back
Are you a mean person?
***not as much anymore
Last person you hit?
***I don’t remember
Do you believe once a cheater always a cheater?
***prolly so
Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other?
***it happens all the time
Are there any words on your shirt?
***led zeppelin
Do you think you are a good person?
***im doing the best that I can
Are you a patient person?
***I have been told that I have more than I should for most people
Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
***sort-of
Were you happy when you woke up today?
***very
What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
***kissed miguel
What do you wanna name your future son?
***Xavier
Where do you wish you were right now?
***the ocean
Have you ever been on a cruise?
***no
Were you sad when Michael Jackson died?
***no actually, but I did wait a day before I started to crack a bad joke or two
Do you ever play solitaire on your computer for hours?
***not as much as I once did
Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?
***no.
How many concerts have you attended?
***a few
What state do you live in?
***california
Do you know anyone named Taylor?
***no
Can you spell well?
***no not really
Do you know the band I See Stars?
***WTF Mate?
Are you an older sibling?
***I am
Aside from having no school, what's the best thing about summer?
***nothing actually, I hate the sun
Are you single?
***not anymore
What's your stance on gauges?
***they have the ability to be pretty
Do you say 'legit'?
***….sigh
What would you do if you came home to find everything and everyone gone?
***I would be pretty pissed off
Do you want kids?
***not right now
Are you in high school yet? Or are you already done?
***finished in 2001, but feel like I never left sometimes
What's the most illegal thing you've ever done?
***I was a teen once so you can prolly guess the things I’ve done
Was it fun?
***duh
Have you ever held a spider?
***yes
Best vacation you've ever been on?
***Disneyland
Does anyone in your home speak a language other than english?
***we all speak SIM pretty well here
Have you ever bleached your hair?
***yes, a few times
Are female bodybuilders scary?
***the really buff ones make me a little ill
Have you ever lied and (successfully) gotten out of a school assignment?
***never gave much of a fuck
When was the last time you kissed someone?
***This afternoon
If you were dropped off 5 miles from your home, could you get back alone?
*** I do this often
That's what she said: funny or annoying?
***yes, that’s exactly what she said
Do you wear hairbands as bracelets?
***no my hair is too short for those
The weirdest thing you've done today is:
***sang a song to my cat when I was giving her a bath
Do you play an instrument?
***heh heh heh thatswhatshesaid….
How many pillows are on the couch in your living room?
***depends, up to five I think
What song do you wish you wrote?
***none
Would you prefer to be a size 00 or is that too skinny?
***I could not do that because I love food and have big bones
Favorite key on your keyboard:
***tab is nice
What is the color of most your socks?
***stripey
Do you eat Halls even when your throat doesn't hurt?
***I don’t even have them when it hurts
Do you like Tacos?
***I love the little tacos
What show has the worse actors?
***I don’t watch telle so I don’t know
Hershey's Minis or M&M's?
***nether
The stupidest song ever in your opinion is:
***try not to think about that because it makes me angry
Something you would NEVER wear:
***chastity belt
How many times have you opened the fridge today?
***three
When's the last time you looked up a word in the dictionary?
***today actually
Have you ever put salt in the cake batter thinking it was sugar?
***no
How often do you use a tissue?
***almost never
Are you a twilight reader?
***no
Your favorite word:
***fuck
Last thing you ordered online:
***the book house of leaves
Do you know any Mormons?
***I work with three of them
Are you dedicated to your schoolwork?
***no
Do you use proper grammar or T@LK L!K3 D!$?
***W007
Approximately how many people don't like you?
***the list varies from time to time
Do you have a best friend?
***yes I do
Do you doodle on your arms?
***I write numbers
Do you get along with your mom?
***as much as one can for not living with her
Has anyone ever told you to fuck off?
***not that I can remember
What's the farthest you've traveled for a funeral? If you've never been, where does the oldest relative in your family live?
***San Mateo for both
Do you think your mother raised you right?
***Haahahahahahaha!! That can be argued…
Have you ever been suspended?
***no
Are you "smart"?
***depends
Do you actually listen to what your teachers tell you?
***for the most part I did
Do you like to wear earrings, or are they just a pain?
***I love to
Do you wiggle your toes when they're cold?
***nope
Do you wear crazy socks under long jeans?
***yes I do all the time
Would you ever have a lime green wedding dress?
***no but only because I want to get married in the dress from the beatleguise movie
Do you like shopping alone?
***yes it is zening for me
Have you ever written a song?
*** not really
Does anybody send you money in the mail for your birthday?
***it would be nice
Do you own any shirts that have a year on it?
***no
What do you think about mullets?
***bah.
Would you rather date an actor or an athlete?
***your mom
Who is your shortest friend?
***I will nether deny or confirm that accusation
Do you have any scratches on your cell phone?
***yes
What grade would you never want to repeat?
***any of them
When was the last time you blushed?
***earlier today
Do you know anybody who has a birthday in November?
***me
Is there anything you need to buy at the store right now?
***donno
Do you have any video game systems in your room? Which one(s)?
***no
Is it true that you hurt the ones you love the most?
***I only use that at work when I want to hit rob for being stupid, so yes, yes it is true
What monster would you be most afraid to have in your closet?
***a fast one
Did you do anything productive today?
***bathed the cat
How do you usually wear your hair?
***on my head
What movie coming out do you really want to see?
***ingenuous bastards and Sherlock homes
Is your skin tone lighter or darker than your Mom’s?
*** the same
What is the best thing about the beach?
***the noise at night
Have you ever done another persons make-up?
***I think so
Do you get snow days off of school/work?
***yes I did it was all hell on earth when that happened and why I hate the fucking snow
Do you think your neighbors ever spied on you?
***would not surprise me in the least
What color eyes does the last person you kissed have?
***brown
When was the last time it rained?
***two weeks ago
Honestly, do you double dip?
***only if it is all mine
What color is your birthstone?
***orange
Do you save your old school work?
***mostly the art stuff
What is one thing you don’t like sharing?
***boyfriends
Do you ‘dress to impress’?
***fuck that
Which Adam Sandler movie do you like the most?
***wedding singer
Who was one of your first celebrity crushes?
***Bruce Campbell
Did your parents ever read stories to you before bed?
***I don’t remember
Would you be considered more of a teacher’s pet or a class clown?
***nether
Do you have any family members who are mean to you for no reason?
***ahahahahahahahahahahaa!!
Have you disappointed anybody recently?
***no
Have you ever been hit on through text message?
***yes it was silly
What color are your nails painted right now?
***blood red
Do you have to do any yard work?
***nope
What’s worse, ignorance or stupidity?
***both
When was the last time you had ice cream? What kind was it?
**I can’t remember
Explain your relationship status:
***taken
How many windows are open on your computer?
***one
What are you doing after this?
***sleep hopefully, or work on my goggles
How tall are you?
***five five
Last hug from the opposite sex?
***skott
Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
*** I have a few times
Is something bothering you?
***not today
When's the last time you got stung by a bee?
***forever ago
What's a word that rhymes with DOOR?
***bore
Name the shoe brand you are wearing?
***converse
Do you write notes on your hand?
***I use my wrist most of the time
Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?
***not personally
Did you take a nap today?
***no
Would you be willing to live with your best friend?
***I do
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
***not really, I think I would already know at this point
Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?
**all the time
Do you believe your ex thinks about you?
***don’t care
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
***my cat, I always seem to do that
Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
***why, yes
What's wrong with you?
***the list changes every day
Do you think anyone's lying to you right now?
*** I fucking hope not
Do you love anything more then your bf/gf?
***no
Do you straighten your hair?
***only when I put it up
What is the last movie you watched?
***fear and loathing
What do you hear?
***Monty pythons flying circus
Ever felt like you're not good enough?
***not lately
Think a lot before you fall asleep?
***sometimes
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
***indeed
Do you smoke everyday?
***can’t anymore
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
***yes
What will you be doing this weekend?
***working
What were you doing at 8 am today?
***cuddling
What were you doing at 10 am?
***taking my medications
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
***no
Will tomorrow be better than today?
***it depends on what happens
Last person you shared a drink with?
***ice
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
***yes
Do you get along with girls?
***mosty, mosty
How much longer until your birthday?
***four months
How often do you say I love you?
***I did today
Are you tired?
***very
When is the last time you talked to all of your siblings?
***a few months ago, he is being an asshole
How did you last get hurt?
*** ice keeps hurting me... XD.

Miguel lost his key and has been looking for them all day today
he cleaned his room and everything
he asked me if i could think of places to find them
i suggested to look on the belt he was using
he found them
go me...

you’re his girl and he’s your fella and all the rest is talk

2009-06-18T09:48:33Z

Did you accept or deny your last friends request?
***I think it was an accept, but I don’t remember
Was the last person you hugged a male or female?
***male, it was tony and I climbed him like a sloth
Do you have a pet fish?
***fish are better as food for me
Have you ever had an abortion?
***possibly self induced
If you could travel back in time, how far would you go?
***not sure really
Are you wearing rings?
***just one from my gay boyfriend from the past, I actually miss that one
What did you last go see at the cinemas?
***star trek, ub3r g33kag3
Are you doing well at school?
***yes, really well
Do you like guessing?
***meh
Have you ever seen the film Aristocats?
***when I was super tiny I did
Believe in God?
***something but not “god”
Do you read books often?
***not as much as I would like to
Did your night suck?
***only for a little bit, but I’m better now
Are you starting to realize anything?
***nothing new
Do you have empty alcohol bottles hidden anywhere?
***not hidden
How late did you stay up last night and why?
***3am because I went to lodi with ice and Miguel to this dancy/thrashy thing
Did you go out or stay in last night?
***goed out
Where were you at 10pm last nite?
***eh I think in my undies in ices front room
When was the last time something bothered you?
***two days ago, but im better now
Are diamonds a girls best friend?
***not for me
Do you straighten your hair?
***no
Do you wear clothes/ shoes/ jewelry that are uncomfortable?
***sometimes but mostly for work
Do you text message a lot?
***about average
Do you freak out if you miss your favourite show?
***YES, OMG!!! IF I MISS ANOTHER EPPISODE OF HANNA MONTANA IMMA GONNA DIE!!!!
Last person you talked on the phone with?
***ice, she is now on her way to Vegas with her mum, Godspeed…
What was the first thing you did when you woke up today?
***laid there until I realized I forgot to set my alarm
Do you get along with your parents?
***yes for the most part
Do you believe that what comes around goes around?
***karma can be a bitch sometimes
What are your plans for tonight?
***cannot say…
Do you miss anyone?
***mehbee
Do you give out second chances too easily?
***depends on how much of an epic fucking fail you do the first time
What did you do yesterday?
***err, worked, went out with this guy, and kicked at the air for a bit
When was the last time you talked to your number 2 on your top?
***via text today
Are you happy at the moment?
***I’m alright, for the first time in a long time
Why do you feel like that?
***could it be the weather?
What are your plans for tomorrow?
***prolly nothing, might clean the fuck out of the house
Do you know if anyone likes you?
***I could take a guess, and probably be spot on
Are you open with your feelings to people?
***sometimes but not as much as I should as to not hurt myself
Have your parents ever smoked pot?
***yes
Who did you text last?
***kari
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
***yes I have been know to most of the relationships that I have been in
Are you an alcoholic?
***not this week
What would you say if you found out your friend who was your age still slept with a blanket?
***funny that, I just found my baby blanket the other day, now its on my bed again
What was the last email you deleted without opening?
***I delete most of the email I get
What was the last thing you complained about?
***being tired at my cat, she dose not care
What was the last list you made a list of?
***things to do, but I lost that list
What was the last interesting thing you wondered about?
***cannot say
Explain something that frustrates you often?
***customers and people in general
What is the first movie you remember seeing in theaters with a friend?
***chicken run
What term do people use that you hate?
***anything with the words “dude” or “man” but mostly “dude”
Do you have emotional ties to the town you are currently in?
***Fuck that
What was the last thing that truly made your heart smile?
***a message from an old loved one
Which bills do you have to pay?
***the bills
Have you ever just washed your hair over the tub?
***many times
Is there anything you're trying to do more often?
***calm the fuck down like I used too
Do you know anyone whose initials spell something?
***little brothers name spells SAM
What is your favorite line from your favorite movie?
***humm currently?….Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed- interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit- crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life: I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who need reasons when you've got heroin?
Approximately how long do two people have to date before you'd say they're in a long term relationship?
***I don’t say
How many open houses did you go to last summer?
***bwah?
What would you do if one of your best friends was trying to meet a guy they met online?
***never tried to stop her before…
Do you have any photos on your camera you should upload?
***no, they are all shite
got a little note today that made me smile
and made me think
and remember
not all of the guys who have fallen in and out of my live are complete fucking heartless assholes
its kind of nice to know this

you know who you are....

this shit IS bananas

2009-06-10T00:07:30Z

Yesterday I got to hear the whole story about my first word
Those of you who know me, know I swear like a sailor
Funny that because my grandfather actually was a sailor

But I got to hear what led up to my very first word
That word being

Shit

I went to the doctors today to try and get myself out of this ocean of depression I am currently swimming in and to go and get my diabetes under some sort of control, cause that is also a disaster

The doctor asked me if I ever had any serious hospital visits and I told her about when my granpa died and I ended up in intensive care for a week or so and almost died as well

(I decided that instead of letting out how sad and angry I was I would bottle it up and the result was my organ were shutting down because my diabetes decided to become a bitch and try to kill me again)

That was when my mum told the doctor about the very first time I was in the hospital for my sickness
I had never herd this story before now and it was a doozy

I was very sick and had to go to the hospital because I was dying , I puked all over my cousin and passed out on the floor. So they took me in and shuffled me into intensive care where I was in a coma for a week or so
The doctors thought that I was going to die because I was so ill
But as you prolly guessed I was fine

The funny part was when my mum said one day she was sitting in the room next to me and I was still out
All of a sudden I slowly woke opened my eyes and looked at her
Then I looked at the IV’s on my hand and looked down at the ones on my foot
Then I looked at her again and sighed
And said “shit”

And now you know why I swear so fucking much…..

The band is just fantastic, that is really what I think. Oh by the way, which one's Pink?

2009-06-05T02:22:24Z

Your boyfriend/girlfriend isn't around but their phone is, do you look through it?
***When I did have one I did not do this because I feel that it is none of my business to go through the phone when he is not around
What if they went through yours?
***they have and I have nothing to hide
Do you miss anyone?
***from time to time
What are you doing tomorrow?
***prolly washing the cat at some point
Where is your phone?
***on the table in the front room
Would you rather date someone older than you or younger?
***age dose not matter too much for me but dating someone way older than me would not happen
Are you excited for anything happening in the next week?
***no
How are you currently feeling?
***sickly but will be alright
Do you regret anything you've done recently?
***no actually
What do you usually do right when you wake up?
***talk to the cat about what a GREAT day I am going to have
Are you smiling in your MySpace default picture?
***no
If you drank fifteen beers, what would you be doing?
***possibly going to the hospital
Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months?
***depends of different factors
Are there any stressful situations in your life?
***hmmm a few
Who did you talk to on the phone last?
***david still
Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?
***p-jamz all day
If you could move somewhere else, would you?
***yes
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
***no, well maybe
Recently kissed anyone with the name starting with a M?
***no
Have you kissed the last person you texted?
***no that would make life more complicated for everyone if I did
Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?
***most people but not all
Do you delete people off of MySpace?
***not in a while
What do you always take with you?
***keys, monies, and ID
Do you think you'll be married in 5 years?
***It’s not in the cards
What happened at 10am?
***in the middle of a strange dream involving a person I once worked with
What was the best thing that happened today?
*** when I saw the latest DA from a-koffman-character
Do you think that you've ruined your chances with someone?
***no
What is something you currently want right now?
***to sleep for three months then waking up in san Francisco
Are you excited for next year?
***still to early to tell
How many pillows do you sleep with?
***five, and a gigantic teddy bear named Rupert
Would you go out with someone right now if they asked right now?
***a date yes, a relationship….. Prolly not
What is worse, physical or emotional pain?
***Emotional pain.
What color is the shirt you are wearing?
***Black. (big shock)
Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
**no
Can you recall the last time you liked someone?
***yes.
Honestly, do you hate the last girl you were talking to in person?
***no, I like the girls I know and actually talk to
When was the last time you received a hug?
***got a few the other night
What's the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?
***being honest and underdstanding
Is your #1 single?
***yes?
Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
***yes but the context was purely neutral
Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/girlfriend every week?
***no
How's your heart lately?
***tired
How late did you stay up last night and why?
***not as late as the night before but still kind of late
How did you meet the last person you talked to on the phone?
***funny that…
Do you believe in love at first sight?:
***I did when I was little
When is the last time you took a nap?:
***Monday night
What are you listening to?
***the fridge and a fan
What was the highlight of your week?
***the fact that my cat is slowly doing better
Whose car were you in last?
*** Ice’s
When is the next time you will kiss someone?
***not going to say
How long is your hair?
***really short on the sides and long-ish in the middle
Are you good looking?
***that’s what they say
Last movie you watched?
***the ninth gate with ice
Last thing you ate?
***popsicle
Last thing you drank?
***water
When was the last time you had your heart broken?
***a little last week, but it is better so far
Who came over last?
***ice
Are you left-handed?
***sort of
Favorite Vacation?
***stupid to day but the last time I went to Disneyland was good
What is your favorite scent?
***that guy smell, it kills me every time
Who makes you happiest?
***I don’t really know anymore
When is your birthday?
***November 19th
What was or is your favorite subject in school?
***art and science
What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
***unavailable ones
Favorite Song?
***depends on the day, I like ramstines’ cover of the depeche mode song “stripped” at the moment
Do you like to sing at all?
*** all the time but usually quietly to myself
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Who was the last person you smoked a cigarette with?
***myself
If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
***winter
You have to get a piercing, what do you get?
***septum
You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
***something from MBD on my left arm
Do you miss anyone?
***sort of
When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
***today
Plans for tomorrow?
***listen to cat vomit, hide from the world, try to get a card credit card again
Is anything wrong?
***quite a few things are wrong
Are your friends taller than you?
***a few of them are
What were you doing this morning at 3:30am?
***letting my brain reek havoc
What were you doing 2 hours ago?
***eating food with david
Do you like the ocean?
***love the ocean
How many windows are open on your computer?
***two
Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
***male
Do you know anyone named Matt?
***karis little brother
Is your hair curly or straight?
***straight.
Do you wear glasses?
***I should be
Are you currently jealous?
***nope
What are you doing today?
***going to watch a clockwork orange and eat chilli mac, hells yeah
What jewelry are you currently wearing?
***three earrings, two bracelets, a ring and a silver 45 adaptor thing on a necklace
Have you ever in any way, been betrayed by someone you trust?
***many times
Are you picky about who you give your number to?
***ishly
What do you prefer: McDonalds or Burger King?
***McD’s
Are you single?
***why yes I am
What made your day?
***the Elmo that was thrown at me in the store earlier today
How many text messages are in your inbox?
***lately there has been about 100 or so
How many hours did you sleep last night?
***11
Where have you lived throughout your life?
***all over california
When is the next time you will kiss someone?
***don’t know
Will this weekend be a good one?
***I’m working so I doono
You're locked in a room with the last person you kissed, how is it?
***comical
Has anyone ever called you a bitch?
***yes
Ever kissed someone starting with A?
***yes
Who was the last person who said "I love you" to you that wasn't family?
***in a platonic way…
Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend?
***yes
What was the most memorable thing that happened last summer?
***going to Washington, was not a good one but it will be in my memory for sometime
Do you drink tea?
***off and on
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
***depends on the sobriety
Where will you be tomorrow at noon?
***on the moon, with steve
How was your day?
***I feel like I have been asked this question a few times already, day has been alright, still
Anything exciting happen lately?
***thunderstorms are the greatest
Do you own something from Hot Topic?
***only clearance stuff
Will you be a strict parent one day?
***only when I need to be
Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
***a little of both but I mostly just keep them in
Is there someone you will never forget?
***yes
Can you go in public looking like you do?
***well I wouldn’t go out like this
Does anyone call you by your last name?
***not since high school, thank the maker
Are you an alcoholic?
***not really, have not gotten drunk for a few weeks
Is this year the best year of your life?
***fuck I hope not
Think back to June 2008, were you single?
***no
If someone is doing something that upsets you, do you tell them?
***more than I used to
Do you think its possible to be young and in love?
**indeed
Did someone make you smile lately?
***and how
Did you have a good birthday this year?
***don’t know yet
Are you okay with the life you live?
***not happy with, but okay with
Do you believe tat every thing happens for a reason?
***yes I do believe that
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You ready for some questions that you barely find in other surveys?
***sure
What comes to mind when I say 69?
***Bill and Ted’s excellent adventure
Is there a person that you can go to in sweats, hair a mess, and still feel comfy?
***pretty much everybody
Do you like where you live?
***fuck no
Have you ever thought about killing someone in detail?
***bwahahahahahaha!!! Yes.
What do you have pierced on you?
***My ears
Do you blow dry your hair?
***no reason to
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
***me
How much alcohol did you have this weekend?
***none
Can you see a stuffed animal from where you're sitting?
***heh I can see six of them
Do you straighten your hair?
***only when I attempt to do my Mohawk up
Has a good friendship ended recently that you wish had not?
***it ended a bit ago but the friendship was not a super good one
Does anyone call you babe or baby?
***nope
Who is the last person to send you a message on myspace?
***chris
How old will you be in 4 years?
***29
Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
***I think so, I don’t remember. I am not on myspace rite now however…
What were you doing 5 hours ago?
***sleeping
Do you still talk to your friends from elementary school?
***just my roommate
What's wrong with you right now?
***slepeh, depression, sick cat, lac of monies to fix her correctly
Was today a good day?
***bah
Do you have a ceiling fan in your room, and if so, is there dust on that fan?
***no
Have you ever had a garage sale?
***ishly
What is the last beverage you had?
***water
Are you happy right now?
***no
Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
***no, but I do joke about finding my brother under a rock and asking my mum to keep it…
Last person to text you?
***ice
Call?
***david
Do you like being home alone?
***yes
When was the last time you smiled?
***two hours ago
Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
***super nifty friend I just started to hang out with again
Does it bother you when people spell/type your name incorrectly?
***nope, used to it
Who was the last person you talked to last night before bed?
***my cat
Is there anyone you trust who you shouldn't?
***prolly
Have you ever cried over a text?
***nope
Will you be in a relationship in the next month?
***no
Do you have anything that belongs to a partner or an ex partner?
***im sure I do somewhere
When was the last time you cried?
***a day or so ago
Do you argue with people often?
***yes and no
Drifting away from anyone?
***not any further than I have already
What would you say if someone told you they were in love with your brother?
***someone is in love with my brother, im pretty sure she is fucking crazy tho
Have you hugged anyone in the past 72 hours?
***yes
Have you ever made out in your room?
***yes
Where is your number one person on your friends list?
***in Hawaii
Have you ever had a school picture turn out absolutely dreadful?
***well they are funny to me because of the goofy teeth and silly outfits but you know when you are younger and all…
Who was the last person to get on your nerves? What was he/she doing?
***jon at work because it is just what he dose
Does it bother you when you text somebody and they take forever to respond?
***no it happens with most of the people I text but I figure they are busy so I don’t care too much
Or when you text them and one word replies or they don't reply for a few hours?
***meh
Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
***david
Would you ever date your number one on myspace?
***that would be funny but not awful
Have you ever fallen asleep texting someone?
***nope
Have you ever lost a close friend?
***kind-of
Do you act differently around the person you like?
***no I am retarded around everyone I know
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
***yes
When's the last time you ran?
***a week ago when the apartment complex was on fire
Who were you dating 4 months ago?
***david
Who's shoulder did you last cry on?
***nobodies
Have you ever kissed someone with tattoos?
***no…?
Who were you dating on Valentine's Day?
***daivd
Where did your last hug take place?
***in a parking lot
What celebrity do people say you look like?
***can’t remember
What age were your parents when they had you.?
***mum was 26, pop was 27

but, at least, the ceiling's very pretty....

2009-05-30T09:17:49Z

A bit has happened in the last week and so
*David and I are no longer together
*The boss i liked was moved to another store
*the apartments were in semi flamey doom
*had a interesting conversation with an old coworker
*got a interesting message from an old old coworker
*going to the doctor AGAIN
*things fell apart, its scientific

busy busy

was thinking about the break off for some time but wanted to make sure i was 100% and last Tuesday and wends day was the turning point for me
i was done, tired, and did not want to end up completely hating him because he annoyed me so fucking much
he took it well and we still talk now and again
but i don't actually miss him as much as i though that i would
so Yay for me i suppose

my assistant manager debi was moved to the slower store on watt and el Camino for some bullshit politics kind of reason as far as i am concerned
so i feel significantly less safe than before
he wants me to go
he wants me to quite
he might even try to fire me
i just need to be extremely careful at work
even more than before
motherfucker

the cat seems to be sick but getting better, i think the stress form the other morning fucked her up a bit and she is just getting over it
feeding her pedilite when she is not willing to be calm is an Olympic sport indeed

this place is a dump
I hate this place
And the crack heads cleaning the apartment at 4am with waterproofing spray near open flames
truly is
awesome

got a message from this guy i knew a year or so ago and was surprised because i was thinking about him a few hours earlier and *DOOM*
i got a message from him
he was apologizing for something i was pissed at him for but i do not remember why
i am sure it was just me being a girl and it was small and unimportant
i was just glad to hear that he was well

i have been slightly manic but i feel if i do not take any naps in the middle of the day i will be on some sort of sleeping schedule soon
but not really
my mind and body like to fight all of the time
body is tired but the brain is up for good
thinking about awful things, thinking about nothing
just thinking and running and going
on and on while the legs are ready to go and the back is wanting to break

good news is i am attempting to get myself well again
somehow
i am going to the doctors in June to get told i am doing a bad job of taking care of myself and hopefully will get on some sort of anti depressants and maybe even birth control
specially because all of the girls at work seem to be getting knocked up
i don't want to be the next lucky winner of you-will-be-fucked-for-the-rest-of-your-life-and on-food-stamps-while-people-hate-you
Soooo yeah
its 2am again and my brain is spitting all over the place
woo!

Oh, so I drank one It became four And when I fell on the floor ... ...i drank more

2009-05-19T03:15:15Z

.....so
i did it....
i saw star trek
and it was fucking awesome
i geeked out so much but it was fun
the casting was funny for some of the characters
And I'm almost sure they made all of them go and watch all of the original series to get all of the characters down so well
i mean kirk was still a douche bag but not like the "great" William Shatner

I just…
Loved it
I know I’m fucking retarded and I just outed myself completely but
Fuck it
Spock Rules!!!!

malenky_mozg @ 2009-05-07T17:55:00

2009-05-08T01:00:19Z

Is there a guy that you can go to in sweats, hair a mess, no make up and still feel beautiful?
***yes
Would you ever become a Vegetarian?
***half assed try once
What did you have for breakfast?
***burrito form chipotle
Do you still talk to the person you fell the hardest for?
***no, but not by choice
How's your heart lately?
***tired
Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with?
***My co-worked Jon, it was semi-serious
What are you listening to right now?
***the clash in my head
Have you punched a hole in the wall?
***no
Where were you at 2:00 this morning?
***on the interwebs
Anything annoying you right now?
***have to pee
Are you waiting for anyone's call right now?
***No
Do you regret something you did yesterday?
***no, well no
What kind of bottoms are you wearing?
***undie bottoms
How many windows are open on your computer and what are they?
***two, word and somthin else
What are you doing tomorrow?
***working
Where did your last hug take place?
***in my front room after laughing at boyfriend
Who was the first person you talked to today?
***cat, as always
If you could move somewhere else, would you?
***FUCK YES
Do you prefer to call or text?
***text.
When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
***can’t remember
Can you live a day without tv?
***I pretty much live everyday with out tv
Have you ever liked someone older than you?
***everyone
Would you hug the last person you hugged again?
***I am
Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
***me and my roommate
How is your life lately?
***a lesser degree of shit
Who's the last person to comment you?
***bwah… I can’t remember
Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?
***well I could but would not want the attention for it
Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
***straight
Something you're looking forward to?
***getting paid again
What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
***having a bad dream
When's the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
***the other night when I almost peed in karis car because of the potato discussion
Do any of your friends have children?
***not the ones I talk to
Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit?
***yes it was not as bad as you would imagine
Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
***it’s the only time I will
Does someone love you right now?
***yes
Is there someone that you believe you will always be attracted to?
***yes
Do you like pancakes?
***yes I do
Is there a difference between love and in love?
***yes
What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
*** talked to david
What is the last thing you spent money on?
***food
Did you like anyone last summer?
***kay?
Have you ever made someone laugh when they were crying?
***usually yes
Do you like to cuddle?
***indeed
Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
***not really, but I am luck with what I do have
Are you ever a freak about cleanliness or organization?
***depends
Do you remember the first person you ever kissed?
***yes, that’s a funny story
How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
***days worth of kisses
Where do you go when you want to be alone?
***I can’t really do anywhere to be alone
How late did you stay up last night?
***err about 2am this morning
What are you going to do this weekend?
***work
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Have you ever fallen out of love?
***yes a few times
If you're in a relationship how long have you been together?
***year and a half I think
What is the middle name of the first person you had oral sex with?
***Gordon, I think….(flash Gordon was there in silver under wear….)
What kind of underwear are you wearing and what color?
***ha, did not even look at this one when I wrote the flash part above, ummm red
What is the thing most important to you (physical) about the preferred sex?
***it has changed a few times, can’t pin point anything in particular
How many drinks does it take to get you drunk?
***welp it all depends on what I get
When's the last time you went on a date?
***err date-ish on Monday night
Fall or spring?
***Fall
Person you most wish you hadn't made out with?
***I do not regret any kiss, no not even THAT one…. Kari, I can hear you laughing….
If you are straight, what person of the same sex would you do it with?
***the list varies from month to month, but im not perfectly straight
Who is the person or persons you can count on the most?
***usually kari, david and ice now
If you could date any celebrity past or present who would it be?
***just want to hang out with hunter, that would be nifty
Favorite drinking game?
***don’t do the game thing, but I did play kings cup once and did not loose!!
Do you ever wonder if the person standing next to you is a virgin or not?
***no
Would you rather eat a deep fried butter stick, or deep fried oreos?
***yuck, and I love butter, but yuck
What is the top thing you want to do before you die?
***go to england
Are you any good with kids?
***yes actually
When is the last time you've ridden in a limo?
***never have
Were you popular in high school?
***I was one of the “scary kids”
How is your attention span?
***never the same
Ever consider plastic surgery?
***no
Why are guys more easy to be friends with?
***not that I can tell
Could you ever forgive your best friend for sleeping with your boyfriend?
***I would laugh a lot
Who do you go to for advice the most?
***kari or my mum when she is feeling better
Have you ever been kissed in the pouring rain?
***sure?
Abusive relationship; leave him/her or keep it a secret?
***you should leave, but it is hard to do if you get stuck
What's your opinion of gay people?
***huh?
Do you blame yourself for anything?
***yes constantly
Do you live at home with your parents?
***No.
What do you think is a bad quality to have?
***oh the list is large
Do you ever think about an ex?
***ishly
Would you ever get back with an ex?
***No
Would you have sex on the first date?
**not yet
Have you ever found yourself somewhere and not remembering how you got there?
***…no…
Do you think the woman should work or stay home?
***sometimes
Are you a lover or a fighter?
***indeed
What's the worst thing to happen to you today?
***cabin fever
What were you doing on 9/11/2001?
***trying to sleep in a house full of loonies
Have you walked in on someone sitting on the toilet?
***I usually pee with the door open
Is there a certain person that makes you feel safe?
***yes
Would you rather win one million dollars, or change someone's life?
***the money because I could help me AND change someone’s life with it
Do you own any band t-shirts?
***mostly MBD
If someone hit you, what would you do?
***depends on the state of the hitting
Are you allowed to dye your hair vibrant colors?
***ishly
Are you addicted to pointless surveys?
***it helps kill the time between naps
do you still have your tonsils?
***Indeed.
which emotion do you think is stronger- love or anger?
***love, love will tear us apart again…
what do you think is a good theme for a prom?
***ummm zonbiebridezillasfrom mars?
which do you say more? "hello", "hey", "hi", etc.?
***meh
Warning:
May contain maniacal jumps from topic not related
And, go…

Wanting to do something silly for a bit now
But not sure where I want to do it
No no no, not talking about a place to loose my mind completely
But we all know where the fuck that would be if it ever happens
For this social experiment I want to ride my bike to a coffee shop somewhere in town
With my old Remington travel type writer in the front basket
My top hat including the goggles
My little shades, poka-dot dress with my grey cloth boots

Just sitting there clove rested on the side of my mouth
Coffee slightly dancing on the table because of the tappity of the machine
looking like I am really concentrating on some break through of journalism about this shit town
But if you looked at what I was writing it would be something funny about clouds or fluffy kittens

Got a huge manic attack today but by the time it got fierce it was too dark for me to go and ride my bike some where so I just paced back and forth in the front room making myself even crazier
So I gave up and went back on the computer
I hate it when this thing wins
It wins way to often for me to be okay with it
I just imagine myself gaining three hundred pounds by just sitting here
that’s just me talking silly, and I will go no further on this subject
Cause big brother could very well be watching….

Have a new stalker type.
So not stoked
I am sure he is a nice man but I just don’t like him
It might be the fact that I have told him no I don’t want to go on a date with him THREE times, twice in one day,.
Plus he is just slightly creepy to me, and when I get one of those feelings it is usually not so good…
There is nothing like the feeling of making sure you keep an eye out for a white truck so he doesn’t figure out where you live cause I am pretty sure he would do something like show up at the apartment and try there
That would be fantastic
Heh boobs…

Also….

Thinking about getting my mum on a cell plan with me just to keep some sort of tabs on her, but in a way one would think she would not suspect me of doing
But your wrong, she would know right off the bat what I was up too
Crafty ass woman
….. Not a bad idea, just not a cheap one for me anyways)

Cat is perplexed at furniture situation, thinks the invisible bugs are out to get her
And I throw a sock

The Ghospal Acording to Joe Strummer.....

2009-05-05T06:42:24Z

This Saturday (5/9): Kevin Seconds, Kepi Ghoulie, BagOKittens, Brian Hanover...9pm, $3. Fox&Goose, 1001 R St, Sacto

Vogue

2009-04-22T21:29:49Z

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
****I’m sure there is a list somewhere
Do you laugh a lot?
****I just did because of question #1
Do you consider yourself lucky?
****kind-of
Have you ever been awake for 2 days straight?
****Way to often
Have you ever been in a hotel room with a friend of the opposite sex?
****Yes
Did you say "fuck" today?
****Prolly
Are you happy?
****I’m not angry
Does your myspace password have to do with a person?
****Yes
Do you miss anyone?
****Yes, every now and again
Do you believe ex's can be friends?
****a sort of friend maybe not a very good one tho
Is anything bothering you right now?
****family and the city folk
What are you craving at the moment?
****not having the mental capacity to understand ANYTHING
What do you hear?
****The sweet purring of the air conditioner (I bet you thought I was going to say kitty)
Did the last person you kiss have tattoos?
****No
Are you in a good mood right now?
****Well, im not angry
Who is the last person that called you?
****Kari
Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
****No, he felt he never did anything wrong
Do you want kids?
****I can hardly take decent care of myself and would feel like an asshole to bring anybody else in to this shit world we live in, so no I do not
Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
****Yes he’s a little bastard, damn bastard
Ever been lied to by someone you thought would never lie to you?
****I’m pretty sure this happens to everybody, weather it is a little one or not
Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
****Not particularly
Do you think that you have made a difference in someone's life?
****Possibly
What did you do last weekend?
****Worked, sleep, eat
Who was the last person to make you smile?
****My cat when she head-butted my leg when I walked in the door and hour ago
What was the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
****Green tea with citrus
Will this weekend be a good one?
****No
What happened yesterday?
****Did not sleep well, had another strange dream. Got to work where christen looked at me with deep pain in her eyes and muttered “welcome to hell” while my two dumb assed bosses ran around like the fucking headless chicken retards in the background…
Oh and a Wal-Mart offence..

a soap impression of his wife

2009-04-15T22:19:18Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fTV6Jk9Xoa8

went to school with this guy
crazy but in a friendly way...

sundays on the phone to monday, tuesdays on the phone to me

2009-04-06T06:14:04Z

Have you ever made out in your room?
***Yes and so have a few other people as well
Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
***closed
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
***yes
How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
***bunches
Are you listening to music right now?
***just the airplane outside with the search lights on
Did anyone see your last kiss?
***no
How many piercings do you have ?
***four
What is something you currently want right now?
***to have a less depressing social life
Do you drink tea?
***yes
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
***no
Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
***yes
How old is the oldest person you've kissed?
***27.
What drink did you last consume?
***milk
Are you missing someone?
***no
How was your day? and why?
***another day because I got to work at 7am
Who did you just text?
***no one
Did you use perfume today? If so.. what kind?
***candies
What kind of phone do you have?
***nokia
Who did you last kiss? where and why?
***david, in the kitchen, with the candle stick
What song are you listening to?
***across the universe in playing in my head
Mood?
***tired
Why?
***im depressed
Did you go to school today?
***no
Who's your bestest friend in the WHOLE world?
***this is silly
Have you ever had a one night stand?
***depends of the term I guess
What song is stuck in your head?
*** across the universe
Is there anything you regret?
***not really
Are you right or left handed?
***right
Have you ever been close to death?
*** twice once when I was a year old and once in 2000
Do you think you have a pretty good life?
***I could be more comfortable and happy but it’s the only life I got so I guess it’ll do
What does your room like? and who was last in it besides you?
***a disaster, kari
if you married the last person that you just texted what would your last name be?
***joshlyn keifer, now that’s funny
Who was the first person you talked to today?
***rob
What is the last thing you put in your mouth?
***(really? Fuckongchrist kids…. I got something to put in yup mouth….aaaggghh!!!)
Mint ice cream
if you could move somewhere else, would you and where?
***yes san Francisco or Seattle
Who took your profile picture?
***me it was me, I was the turkey
Has anyone ever told you they were in love with you?
***yes
When is the next time you will hug someone?
***don’t know
Are you wearing anything on your feet right now?
***no
What are you doing this coming weekend?
***working
Are you waiting for something?
***I was but now im done
If you could have one person with you right now, who would it be?
***anth
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
***not always
What were you doing this morning at 7am?
***listening to radiohead on my ipod while making panni
Highlight of your day?
***kari’s doodle of elly on face book
Is there anything that you are craving right now?
***to go and do something
Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
***at 35? Fuck I might be divorced at least once by then
What does it mean when you bite your lip?
***concentrating really hard
How do you feel about the way you look?
***good enough
Does it snow where you live?
***thank the maker, fuck no
Are you missing someone?
***no
Do you have any strange phobias?
***yes
Where do you usually spend New Years?
***depends
What do you carry with you at all times?
***Keys and a pen
Do you drink tea?
***yes
Last thing that made you cry?
***frustration from work
Its your friends birthday, do you buy them a gift even though they didn't buy you one?
***always
You win the lottery what do you do?
***pay off my stupid fucking student loans
When do you prefer to take a shower, morning or night?
***sometime during the week
Would you rather stay home all day, or be out and about?
***usually home
Are you good at math?
***no
Plans for tomorrow?
***sleep
Your motivation for tomorrow?
***I will wake up at some point
Do you know what you will wear tomorrow?
***never
Where did you get your last bruise from?
***falling out of someone’s house into their bushes out front

you can scream and you can shout

2009-04-05T06:57:15Z

Something for the rag and bone man "Over my dead body"

Something big is gonna happen "Over my dead body"

Someone's son or someone's daughter "Over my dead body"

This is how I end up sucked in "Over my dead body"

I'm gonna go to sleep let this wash all over me

You know we don't want the monster taking over "Tiptoe round tie him down"

We don't want the loonies taking over "Tiptoe round tie them down"

May pretty horses Come to you As you sleep I'm gonna go to sleep Let this wash All over me.

Come on, Come on You think you drive me crazy, well Come on, Come on You and whose army You and your cronies Come on, Come on Holy Roman empire Come on if you think Come on if you think You can take us all You can take us all You and whose army You and your cronies You forget so easy We ride tonight We ride tonight Ghost horses Ghost horses We ride tonight We ride tonight Ghost horses Ghost horses Ghost horses

and lastly....

A heart that's full up like a landfill,
a job that slowly kills you,
bruises that won't heal.
You look so tired-unhappy,
bring down the government,
they don't, they don't speak for us.
I'll take a quiet life,
a handshake of carbon monoxide,
with no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises,
Silence, silence.

This is my final fit,
my final bellyache,

with no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises please.
Such a pretty house
and such a pretty garden.
No alarms and no surprises (get me outta here),
no alarms and no surprises (get me outta here),
no alarms and no surprises, please

good news for those who love bad news

2009-04-02T05:57:53Z

damn it Franz Ferdinand and your sexy catchy tunes
you hansom skinny jerks from Scotland
you and your musical beats
making me want to dance in the middle of the parking lot uncontrollably....

and on another note

i went into my roommates work and filled out an application and i am hoping for the best
she has been working there for a few weeks and seem to be better at life already
well the sleeping part is iffy but she seems a little happier altogether
i need a little happiness in the little place i have put myself into just a little because when you keep having strange dreams, that might be counted as casual nightmares it makes sleeping difficult

Saturday:had a dream about the end of the world
there was this huge glass building in front of me and this small child standing next to me. a sonic type bomb want off and the glass started to fall, so i grabbed the child and ran through the falling glass and hid in one of the bathrooms on the third floor.

Wednesday: i was dead in a morgue (i seemed to have killed myself somehow) and this girl was doing an autopsy on me and peeling off my skin i was there too but not in my body (duh) as this girl was going to start to take out my organs this other body got up and killed the girl working on me. the other dead body was alive and was helping me put my skin back on, then i left the area and i woke up after i was contemplating jumping off a building with the other person...

yup i need a new job

stop making sence , making sence.

2009-03-31T01:09:21Z

Who is all under "p" in your contacts in your cell phone?
***Not anymore
What's the most interesting thing that happened to you to today?
***the lj comment from greg
If someone hit you, what would you do?
***give them the “you better fucking run” face.
Do you know anyone whose name starts with a Z?
***no
Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?
***this other guy I met named john.
When is the last time you touched drumsticks?
*** ummm In December of last year
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
***yes
Have you ever flirted with a friends crush?
***not that I can recall, I’m retarded when it comes to the flirting stuff
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
***david
What are you listening to right now?
***better off dead
What are you excited about?
***nothing in particular
Last movie you watched?
***tomb raider, had to get my jolie fix
Anyone crushing on you?
***also retarded on the crushing on stuff, I just fail at this .
Has anyone ever sang to you?
***yes a few have
Has anyone ever given you a rose?
***yes
Who do you text the most?
***as of last night stewie
How do you make your money?
***breaking down internally
First person to text today?
***stewie
What is your favorite color?
***yellow
What color are your eyes?
***brown with little shards of green
Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?
***david at 2am when he went to sleep
Do you like your parents?
***…..yes
Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?
***david
Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep?
***sleep
Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
***ma I’m pretty sure
How long does it take you to shower?
***again?
Are you flexible?
***if food is out of reach I sure can get to it
Can you speak any other language than English?
***no
What is the last letter of your middle name?
***E
How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
***I think I got two maybe
Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
***yes
Are you scared of flying?
***its been so long I’m over it
Do you like funny people or serious people?
***I like seriously funny people
What do you have planned for tonight?
***eating again at some point and then staring at the ceiling above my bed until I work at seven again
Do you have a favorite item of clothing?
***my murder by death zip up hoodie
Do you like messages or comments better?
***messeges
Last thing you ate?
***t bell, yummy
What was last thing you drank?
***water
Are you happy right now?
***content
If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
***a apartment in SF fully paid for one year
What were you doing at midnight last night?
***texting stewie
Are you left handed?
***no
What was for dinner tonight?
*** a motley crew of shit.
What is the last thing you thought about?
***cleaning cats ears
When is your birthday?
11/19
Do you want to get married & have children one day?
***not as important as one would think
Do you regret anything?
***yes, but places not people
How do you wanna die?
***in my sleep, or in a empty bath tub with a lit cigarette
Have you ever crawled through a window?
***yeah, that’s always funny
Any summer plans for 2009?
***new job and apartment.

the weather’s kinda lousy today... so what oh what oh what’ll we play?

2009-03-29T22:50:34Z

Is anyone ignoring you right now?
***Just my cat, cause she’s a cat and that’s what they do
Have you ever kissed someone named Paul or Luke?
***HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAaaaaaa, funny
Do you have a best friend?
*** I do
Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
***a few times
Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
***I try not to think too much about any of that, it depressing really
Do you look like your mom or your dad?
***usually, my ma is she is not freaking out at me because she is off her meds
How long does it take you in the shower?
***from five minutes to half hour
What movie do you want to see right now?
***watchmen was good, maybe that again
Do you own a camera phone?
***yes it is currently the only camera that I have
Who was the last person that told you they love you?
***David
How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
***not many
What do you wear to sleep?
***undies
Are you easy to get along with?
***if I like you
What is your favorite time of day?
***nap time, or food time
Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
***no, she can be a space cadet, but I’ve gotten used to that
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
***no, but he dose act like an super annoying little brother sometimes
What was the last drink that you put in your mouth?
***(hehhehthatswhatshesaid) umm flat diet pepsi
Are you mad at anyone?
***well if wanting to take my bosses life with my own hands counts , then yes
What are you listening too?
***the wind outside
What was the highlight of your day?
***jons little story about laxatives, and the dire results there of
Last place you went besides your house?
***work
When do you think a joke has gone too far?:
***when someone just misses it completely
When was the last time you were sick?
***I feel sick right now actually
Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?
***I am still alive so its not that bad
Do people ever mistake you for being a different race?
***not rearry
Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
***yes but I am not for now
Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
***no?
Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
***when I’m in it
What did you do today?
***worked, ate, and worked some more
Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
***yes for a few years
Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/?girlfriends at the same time?
***no I have not, but I’m only 25 so….
Have you ever thought about your death?
***a little of both
Would you rather be in a relationship or play the field?
***I don’t know anymore
Have you ever had stitches?
***nope
Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
***err some store
What is the last thing a boy gave you?
***a necklace
Where is your phone right now?
***on my desk
Do you like to cuddle?
***I do
Who was the last person you cuddled with?
***David
How is life going for you right now?
***okay
What if you had a baby with the last person you texted?
***improbable
Will tomorrow be better than today?
***no because every day is better than the next
Has anyone ever told you that you were beautiful?
***a few times
Do you like the rain?
***best weather ever
Did you have a good day yesterday?
***no(see last entry)
I’ll bet you miss someone right now?
***wow its like this machine KNOWs me
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
***I’m sure somebody might be doing that
Have you ever taken anyone or anything for granted?
***I’m human it happens
Were you single on your last birthday?
***no
Who was the last person you took a nap with?
***cat, Rupert and trent
What's bugging you?
***my insides are sick and tired, I need sleep
Any plans for this weekend?
***I work every weekend
Do you get stressed out easily?
***depends of sleeping patterns or lac there of
What is wrong with you right now?
***its quite a list…
Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
***everyday
Are you someone who worries too often?
***not always
Are you usually a happy person?
***no
What was your reaction to the last text you received?
***wow, my paycheck might be okay
Are you happy right now?
***meh
Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
***I sleep in the front room so if the door was open it means the creepy night people can come in..so no, I have no door
Do you get cranky when you're hungry?
***yes
What hair color on the opposite sex do you like the most?
***dark
Where will you be tomorrow at this time?
***home
When was the last time you wore black pants?
***today
Do you hope your children are like you one day?
***no
Do you want to see someone this very minute?
***not actually
Do you want to get married?
***I don’t know anymore
Do you have a best friend that is a girl?
***yesh
Has anyone told you they would never leave and left?
***pretty much